“I pray that your hearts will be flooded with light
so that you can understand the confident hope
he has given to those he called—
his holy people who are his
rich and glorious inheritance.
I also pray that you will understand
the incredible greatness
of God’s power for us who believe him…”
Ephesians 1:18-19 NLT
Ever have a dream not play out like you imagined? Did you decide it was better to play it safe? It’s interesting how we can slip into this safe zone, almost without realizing it. Suddenly, someone asks, “What are you dreaming about?” and you have to really think about it.
I’ve had some really big dreams and have been a part of some really amazing things. I’m not a stranger to conceiving something bigger than me. But after holding some dreams with a grip of steel, I had to admit I was going in a wrong direction. Others, well, they sort of faded into the background after time and space.
- I didn’t stop believing in God.
- I didn’t stop believing He could do anything.
- I just stopped believing I could.
I settled into an honorable place: Father, let Your will be done.
This isn’t wrong. We all need to come to this place, to humbly accept whatever He chooses. To know He is perfect in wisdom and love. To be perfectly at peace in His leading. But something is starting to wake up inside of me. The need to dream. The desire to dream. While “Your will be done” is honorable and right, my Creator also longs for my vulnerability. To expose seeds deep in the cracks of my soul. Seeds I have kept out of the sunlight.
The One who dreamed of me before time wants me to be vulnerable enough to dream with Him about time to come.
Recently, while writing my morning pages, I talked with God about this dilemma. I shared with Him my angst and longing and hesitation. I asked, “How do I even start dreaming again?” Then I paused, “Father, what do You dream about?”
As you read His response to me, put your name in place of mine. Let the words wash over you and water seeds deep within.
Let your dreams rise up to meet His.
“I dream about you, Amy – full of power and strength and courage and confidence. You – dreaming and laughing and loving and resting in Me. I dream about all I have put in you pouring out in beautiful rainbow rivers.
Of seeds becoming trees becoming baskets and bushels of fruit – bright, colorful, juicy, rich fruit. I dream of you, Amy, living in Me – wholly, fully – knowing what I know and being at peace in Me.
I dream about light in every dark corner. Love in every broken heart. Healing flowing in the streets for all to touch and receive. I dream about truth that withstands all time and struggle and storm.
I dream about those whose love withstands all lies and schemes. Love that bleeds for joy and heals because the Life within would not be stopped. I dream of hands together, held without thought of any other way. Of unity in vision of Me. Of children laughing – children running in joy, not fear or pain.
I dream of eagles’ wings to shelter and take higher. I dream of…….. heaven on earth and a new heaven and new earth. Of a bride, spotless and passionate. Of time being still and eternity enveloping us all. I dream of colors and beauty and dreams fulfilled.
I dream of you, Amy. I dream of you.”